BEFORE THE STORM: Last days in New York
In the city that never sleeps, I couldn't sleep. I woke one morning in Washington to be told I had to leave the hostel whose common area had become my bed and the locus of my brief time there. Whatever the circumstances of the night before that led to my dismissal, neither the German Johannes nor the Scottish girls could tell me. Silently fantasising about a dramatic, cruel departure, I left instead quietly, more focused on breakfast.
With nowhere to go, I went, like thousands before me, to New York, seeking refuge amid the murky half-light of its back streets and darker areas. In the comforting crowds of the Lower East Side night, I lost myself, becoming a solitary figure who nodded to well-built Muslims guarding doors, and held court on pool tables under assumed names.
But I couldn't sleep. In cramped communal rooms with chattering men from the Far East, or on makeshift mattresses in the houses of friends, where paint peeled on the walls and the business of the night carried on outside, I found unconsciousness slipping away from me, even as I reached out to embrace it.
Dawn often found me amid the New York streets, head down, hood up, on my way to bed, where half-formed dreams filtered my recent memories only to scatter them like a prism. Here, in embryonic form, were fragments of faces from coast to coast: the Armenian sadomasochist who'd shaved my head, the ex-Cripps gangbanger I'd chased women with, the homeless woman who'd declared her love for me; the Turkish refugee I couldn't remember, and the Canadian hippie I couldn't forget.
Their voices and faces blended with the people from Washington, giving me false memories of non-existent events that vanished as soon as I remembered them. Circumstances were drawing me away from the city, but memories, I felt sure, would bring me back.
As the night ferry took me to Staten Island on my way to other scenes, I watched the colossus retreat from the shimmering waters, black fingers lit by light, row on row of lives and worlds flickering goodbye in the twilight. The next day, fire no-one ever expected fell from the sky and tore out the heart of New York. In an hour, the old city died and a new, darker one was born.
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